how can i smile without my smile
it's funny
i waiting to see the peeps from my long lost life
and smile after saw them
i may look a lil bit crazy
but i had to
no i indeed happy to see them even tough the not realize my eyes were on their
I'm not a stalker but I'm seeking for my smile that will never ever found again
and that suck
i hate live in this fake life
PLASTIC LIFE
how can i live when i don't know the meaning of laughter and happiness

I admitted that sweet memory is no longer in my believe-list
because if I remembering my sweet memory in my past life
everything will torn apart and i will cry like a baby without stopping
i don't know today it's already 9 month I'm torturing myself
without
smile
happiness
laughter
if i had smile,and laugh
I'm only pretending to be happy so
my mum happy
i know she will be happy if i like this
the world is not like old time
my world use to colorful but now
it seems to be just black and white and lie all over my body
i want to get it off but how?

it seems that i talks to thing not human being
i rather be like that
than talking to people that will never understand how i feel
and talks more than i do when I'm the one who need a listener

need new friend but how?
mum said no friend
i hope i can smile again
or life is useless,and my mind will be burden with a lot of things


KMP..:(